Away for too long

I’ve been away for a while, 3 days worth of camp, 5 days of trials. 

The fear of abandonment crept in. People started leaving and she hid deeper in the dimmest corners of her life. Those insecurities were pouring out from her bosom and as her hands fumbled to contain them, her tears, they poured. Leave, just go.

"In life, people come and go, and you just have to learn to accept it."

Why are you so afraid of getting close to people? They won’t hurt and they won’t leave. 

But in the end, everybody does. We all die alone one day.

She painted the pain in her eyes, closed the windows and put on colorful curtains. No longer that quiet and usually depressed soul in reality, she tries to liven up the atmosphere. It was a mask for the world to see. For days on end, she was the girl who strove to live up to expectations; the girl they wanted to see so, so badly.

SHE WAS HAPPY, ENTHUSIASTIC, LIVELY, FULL OF LAUGHTER AND JOY.

But her eyes were empty, and so was her soul. Deep inside, she’s sad.

He’s been appearing in her life way too often. She will keep a distance from him, she promises. Bunny can only be yours, one day, a long, long time from now.

Silly woman.

“She soaked in the sun, bathed in the rain and ran past blaring horns. She used the day to reminisce him perfectly. After all, he can’t be away for too long, can he?”