Last night, it rained heavily. 

Just sitting by, watching the rain fall and I started to type.

The rain hit emerald ground, strong and gusto soldiers.

Never been a Sunshine girl.

Loving the rain, it's therapeutic and beautiful. 

"Where's my Thunder Buddy?" 

Let's sing a Thunder song. 

"The little girl just could not sleep because her thoughts were way too deep. Her mind had gone out for a stroll and fallen down a rabbit hole.

The End"

To the both of them, Love's an investment.
Every step is cautiously planned
The future, the cost and benefits, feelings?

She should have sat down with him eight months ago to ask, "How well do you know me?"

Her heart is a bitch on crack. She knows better. 
But it keeps going to him, bet it doesn't know what's good. 
Let her quiet that wandering mind 

"It's cute when a boy wishes to see you badly." 
A part of me will grow to like seeing you too. 

I wish you notice me someday. 
Hopeless & Empty dreams 

Deja vu. 
It happened again. 

xoxo 

It's such a boring holiday. 
Tons of job opportunities, still a little jobless woman. Le sigh 
Scratched and tore my left lenses and I hate leaving the house with naked eyes. 
People I love are either away or busy. 

I wish I've something more concrete to do. 
Only gotten my new contact lenses a week ago
And I frickin' tore it asdfghjkl 

I wish I could stop hurting 

200 Days of Summer

I said "I'll miss you" and I mean every word of it

I wish I don't have to miss you all the time 

You said "Miss you too" and I know you won't

Day 200

200 days of my 500 days of summer has been gone. 

Someone teased me about the eighth month. 

So many months came and went 

I'm at a place where everyone likes everyone else

And none of us truly know what we want

Attended a camp yesterday and it dawned on me my fervent passion for acting lol. It’s been two years since I last put on my uniform and I was supposed to act as a distracting schoolgirl.

Well, eventually people think I’m nuts and thought I was the victim so wtv, hahaha

Would really like to apologize to the campers for being an annoying prick but hey, that shows a massive acting success! 

Actors for the evening. I can't stop laughing at the two old men after I applied their makeup lol wtf 

PS: Am I really that tiny irl?!  O M F G 

Schoolgirl, Drugs dealer, Maid 

Stephanie saw me in the school uniform and went, "Omg, I must help you take a photo!" and I refused because (pet peeves: Taking photos with rear cam up close) and we contended to taking a 'STEP GUAI' photo hahaha

Hmmmm, she's probably the happy version of the same height me lol 

When two fire elements get together lol (I'm really not talking about horoscopes ;) 

With Yanru! We ended up talking all the time anyway haha

Two years since I graduated, and hey, I still fit in and the skirt is still long, after I folded it -_- 

Received my results for this semester and I would say, I’m pretty much fucked. This is the first time that I didn’t hit 3 and I know I won’t forgive myself for whining and crying out for god’s sake my anguish for poor results ‘cause I fucking deserve it. Not attending classes, late attendance everyday, project work that I’ve no clue about, and hating on public relations classes lol

I’m determined to work doubly hard next semester so I can at least see a 3.

Where to, if you were to ever disappear? 

I wonder what would make me happy. 

I wish I could abandon the world for what makes me happy. 

I wish I was happy instead.

That impulse to disappear is there, always there.

And she finds every opportunity to vanish, to go away. 

Someone once told me that it’s not enough to just like somebody.

“You like me. But can you envision a future with me?”

Since then, this stuck with me. I soon learn that you can’t hide the truth from your eyes, because a single stare is enough to dictate your feelings.

He said, “You’ll never do that. I know how you’re like.”

When I thought of a future with him, he's already gone

Tonight, your nonchalance makes me sad.

Knows better than to let a boy make me feel this way again. 

"Because you've no idea what you want,

you've no idea who you really like."

Well, congratulations then.

I'm glad you do. Fuck 

Effortlessly sidelining every other girl for her 

I may not know what I want

But I'm trying really hard to figure it out 

I mean, I used to really like him, 

since I was being misled by some of his actions 

But I do know that he's a playboy now 

And it will take a while for everything to go away 

You're so mean 

And selfish, just because you're smitten in love 

f o r g e t i t 

I wish I never have to talk to you again. 

Or maybe I will/I have to. I'm just really mad at you tonight. 

And I swear, really

Superhero

心情不好

O M F G somebody actually realized that my mind is wandering whenever I stare into blank space.

You mean, people actually notice? :x

With the recent events, I've been spacing out really frequently. 

I'm so self-conscious now thanks to someone. Le sigh, surprised, not angry.

I don't know what's more frustrating. 

I don't know what I want/They already know what they want

I'm determined to teach those children next week to be superheroes of their own. 

Grow up and save yourself darlings, stitch your own hearts 

Don't wait for a boy to do it for you ok. 

And boys, if girls break your heart

Remember what I taught you 

Pull out your invisible superheroes cape 

And brace yourself together again

Hmmmmm

But no la, I can't teach them love lol 

#LOTD

Yesterday was such a long day,

 last night I fell on my bed, dead tired and exhausted 

Evening now as I'm typing, 

Oh sweet god, I'm in need of coffee 

But maybe I'll just doze off for a little. 

Before my camera comes back to me again, 

And that brings back Fat Dad and sister(s) 

Please bear with a lack of photos 

Egg sandwich one of my favorite friends, Nas Momma, made for me. 

Now I know how it feels like to eat something others make for me! 

If I ever cook/make anything for somebody,

he/she is really important. So no, let's not be hardworking suddenly. 

HEHE SHE'S ADORBS TO BITS.

Got caught in the rain yesterday.
Signs that I've zero adequacy of independence:

Boarded the train the wrong side (Again?!) to Bedok when I'm omw to bugis
Got lost and went to Scape instead of FEP

Guess my friends are used to my utter lack of a sense of direction.
This has to change!!! >: 

My Loots of the day off Giordano, Blogshopping, BlogShop Empire and Unicode last evening.

Forgive how messily I arrange them for a photo. Was mad tired last night and I was too lazy to fold them neatly for pictures heh. (Afterall, I'm gonna hang them all up yup?)

Loots: Faded Denim Jacket, Identical Beige dresses (different designs), Colorful Woolen top, new eyeliner and eyebrow pencil, white platform shoes

The sister is gonna bring back more clothes from bangkok

for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

(Please buy jumpsuits, I love them!)

Haha, I simply love splurging and shopping 

Need to find a new weekend job after my health is better!!! 

Oh crap, it's not like I'm gonna go out often in the holidays 

Except for a late night movie

and zoooooooooooooooo. 

I haven't thought of anything else. 

Alright, gonna rest for a bit. 

Things I've to do after I'm up in a while 

- Final amendments to club's poster

- Email everybody 

- Blog post for club 

- Inform mentors of recruitment 

So, 

let's just plop down and die first. 

I should really do up a new blogskin or blog soon lah.

Time, come to me. 

Laters, baby

Update!

Have been away from my blog for a while, thinking of starting a new page to blog happy thoughts and maybe I'll put it to task really soon. Not in a good mood to post since this page just reminds me of horrid stuffs, albeit all the happy happenings leading up to that incident. Some photos to update you on my life lately. 

I can't hide my excitement, this piece of work, it's almost beautiful. This time round, I've managed to come up with a galaxy themed poster for the 2nd intake which has a completely different aspect compared to my senior batches. I was so happy that it turned out better than expectation and I texted my Nas mommy about it even before it's fully accomplished. 

Her reply was so cute! "I'm glad you're enjoying what you're doing. Show daddy your drawings when he's back ok!" Aw. Now I miss that boy more. It's really nice that he's always approving of my creativity and encouraging me to not change myself for others.

Well, it probably looks simple to you, but I did spend hours photoshopping/cropping/editing the photos and backdrop ):

After finishing Love Rain, rating it 2.8/5 since it's really boring but Yoona is gorgeous and I find myself, just like every other ordinary girl, charmed by Jang Geun Suk (Though I personally prefer the Doctor), so yes, the rating is for their beautiful looks. 

The drama that I've been catching every Weekday night. 80 episodes in total so guess I'll be on it for quite some time. Love 小鬼! ♥

BIG! Was contemplating if I should catch 'I do, I do' (with my favorite Kim Sun Ah) or Rooftop Prince but episode 1 of BIG attracted me and I'm already watching episode 6 as of now.

Sister left for Bangkok for her honeymoon date with the boyfriend, and this is the photo she whatsapped me the other night. Aw, how lucky! I'd love to travel too. 

And the clothes she got me. Look really flowery and I wonder if they will suit me hmmm. 

 It's interesting how we can pick up korean language from the dramas we watch. What's up for your holiday plans? Hope the bunnies whom I love and who love me in return will have a good holiday! 

Lent the sister my camera for her trip so probably fewer photos when I'm out, sighs. 

Face scratched like a wild kitten because of long nails,

ew, horrid. 

Hope this update doesn't bore you. 

More updates coming your way. 

Hope I'll be okay soon.

xoxo