Sunday 26 February 2012

Her Definition of Love



Blogging at 7:39 a.m in the morning so it's an update  for you people when it's time for you to rise and shine, because that'll be my bedtime. Theoretically, it actually IS now, but I'm not that fatigued, so ok, a blog post. 

八(^□^*) YAY! 八(^□^*)


This post’s so unique because it revolves around MY DEFINITION of love. Anyway, I’m not writing this post for anybody in particular, unlike the others previously. I've to state this because people'll always end up asking me time and again...

"Are you blogging about me? Are you blogging about me? Are you blogging about meeeeeeeeee....."

"Uhm no, actually I'm not." 

 Hahaha, omg I'm so annoying. 

But well, since it’s a blog post with a distinctive topic, yes whatever I’ve blogged, you girls may try to envision with your boyfriends or your future boyfriends or if you’re #foreveralone, Uhm, try at your own discretion with your pillows.




OK I WAS JUST KIDDING THERE, PLEASE D0N’T.

Anyway yes, you people SHOULD read because it’s just so relevant and you’d probably leave this page thinking: Wow, it’s like a love story out of a novel. I get that after reading too, funny.

And so begins, HER WORD ON LOVE.

Simple enough…

I want to be the kind of couples who would squabble over the littlest and most unimportant of things; simple details like television channels, the food that we're going to eat, when I tread on his toes unintentionally, our favorite songs and even something lame, like the weather.



He’ll have the most endearing side of me. The one where I pout a lot, try to win him over after antagonizing him with big glassy puss in the boots eyes and when I purse my lips, just to add to my ‘innocence’.



I want a guy who will shower me with concern and doesn't make me feel inferior to other girls. We’ll hold hands as he walks me home, and at times I’ll walk him home. We stroll in the park, surprise each other with thoughtful gifts and end our nights with stolen kisses.



We will hug, and probably cuddle a lot, like most of the time. He teases me with a painful blush in the atmosphere, and piggybacks me.
He’ll not pamper me with plenty of “I love you” because most of the time, they’re used for coaxing. He’ll look me in the eyes and hold me with the faith that he entrusts, conveying his love with a tender, unspoken honor.



He'll let me wear his favorite sweater and root for him in his matches. We’ll take care of each other when we’ve fallen sick and cook porridge with all the mediocre skills in the world.



On weekend nights, we will rent dvds and watch horror flicks, romance flicks, comedy and cartoons. We’ll write poems to each other and drink ourselves dry and penniless on those mentally deranged nights when we just had to let loose. But most of the time, we’ll be looking prep and proper, ready to welcome the judgments of the world. 



We’ll talk on the phone till the birds creak in the dawn and fall asleep with velvet and scented dreams. He’ll make all the other girls jealous of our love, and all the guys jealous of my devotion towards him.

He’ll introduce me to his prettiest and most attractive female friend and declare with gratification that ‘I’m his’.

I’ll bake for him; I’ll work on my abysmal culinary skills and hopefully make him something edible without ending in the emergency ward scalded with all the oil. I’ll place an apple in our picnic basket with the cutest note ever.



On days when we’d like to disappear for a while, we’ll vanish in a bookstore away from the hustle and bustle of town, reading our favorite novels, sifted into the world of our favorite music, our fingers clutched along a cappuccino. Then we’ll take long bus rides home when I fall asleep in his arms.



We’ll be so in love that we see past all our differences, our incompatibility, our insecurities and fears for this world, one too big; for this universe, so unaccommodating. When our glances lock in that single moment, I know perfectly well he’s the boy I want to walk down the aisle with.

He’ll meet me under the dim lights when my hair isn’t brushed and I’m in my PJS, telling me he loves me, beneath all the makeup and exterior beautifications.



He’d probably be a Cancer or Virgo. An adventurer, or a thrill-seeking boy and he probably have the most distinctive ability to tease me so that my words and confessions spiral into shooting stars in his presence. We’ll be so perfect together.



It scares me that I have dreamed up my perfection of a boyfriend and yet probably not one boy in the world could do these for me. It’s like concocting the Barbie formula for your girl and letting your wildest dreams fall apart, right before your very eyes. Oh no, what have I just done.

Well girls, don't take this post too seriously and spend your whole lives pinning for a Prince Charming that won't appear. Jesus, no. This is truly a spontaneous post. There'll definitely be boys out there who can meet your requirements but this is too fucking perfect so no, lower your standards please. 

And boys, girls are just so demanding. But if you do truly love her, won't you try to fulfill some of those for your ladies?




Ok that's all. I'm really tired. Goodnight. It's 8:55 a.m (after the last edit). 
My body clock's fucked. 

xoxo
Chloe

Thursday 23 February 2012

A post for my late birds.


Such a heartbreaking song that I’ve placed on replay for an umpteenth time. 

I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyesMaking every kind of silence, takes a lot to realizeIt's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie







It's already 5:30. Should I call you guys my late birds or my early birds? Hmmmmmm. 

Couldn’t get to bed so in spite of the fact that I blogged barely 12 hours ago, this is yet another short post! A really short one. 



Have an impulse, strong one, to snip my locks away. It’s really long now, 7 centimeters to reaching my waist length. Heaven forbade, since I entered two salons recently and failed to get a decent hair cut. And yes folks, if you've been reading, I've been w h i n i n g over my fringe and it's definitely longer now! :D
(Though I’m skeptical if I’ll be able to achieve centre parting by my 18th birthday :O)

Long hair’s definitely more convenient for digital curls/straightening effects. 
Maybe I’ll dye my hair black in a couple of months time!


Move on. Stay. Move on. Stay. Move on. Stay. Move on. Stay.
It breaks my heart, each time I walk away. But it scares me, each time I come right back, back to nothing at all; it scares me, how cautious he’s treating me.





I'm craving for Mac Breakfast at this timing.
xoxo

Studies, Sleep, IPRA




Alright, guess who bitched about econs and came out of the exam hall unscathed and yes, alive.



Outfit of the day.











ECONS IS FINALLY OVER!!!!!! :D 

Lost my econs lecture notes. Now, who’s bothering? Nothing to be cheery about, IPRA paper in 6 days' time and if I procrastinate, we all know what’ll happen again. 

So yes, here I am, tired and sleepy, probably hitting the sack soon.


If he asked her right now what she wanted out of this relationship … well, she knew; she wanted love. She wanted to have someone to come home to. She wanted to dream about a vacation they’d take when they were sixty and know he’d be there the day she stepped onto the plane. But she’d never admit any of this to him. What if she did, and he just looked at her blankly? What if it was too soon to think about things like this? If he asked her right now, she wouldn’t answer, because answering was the surest way to get your heart handed back to you.

Jodi Picoult, Nineteen Minutes



ALRIGHT I'M REALLY JUST HERE TO SHARE MY JOY THAT ECONS IS OVER!  MUAHAHA. 


Bye sweethearts, now I'm heading for my evening nap. 

Monday 20 February 2012

Hi Econs, Y U NO MAKE ME LIKE U

Yes, after my endless gripes about "HOW MUCH I HATE MY BANNER" I've finally done something to it. Uh huh, something. Well, at least it looks much more presentable now and it doesn't turn me off that much when I view my page so either way, it works.


:D *flashes a toothy grin*


MOTHER OF COFFEE. While everybody's either in a slumber or slogging their guts out with the exam revisions, I'm just sitting here muling over how I could work on my banner T.T


Hi econs, this is what I have to say to you:


If you were a woman, you'd be a fucking whore and you'll probably be fucked over by millions of dickheads.  






Ok, I typed that down. Your argument is invalid. It's not that I didn't try, but econs is really not assimilating into my brain stream. And I have this to reiterate: WHY DO MEDIA STUDENTS HAVE TO TAKE ECONOMICS CAN ANYBODY TELL ME WHY. OMFG WHY. 


I mean, if I wanted to have any knowledge of business, I would have transferred to a business course dog years ago am I right? Jesus. Well, let's do this for a change. Why don't we let business students take up journalism and news writing modules? Fair, isn't it? 






Yes, fine fine. All these grousing doesn't change the fact that I still have to take my paper on Wednesday. Dear Chowchow, I'm sorry to be so hoity-toity to you back then BUT YOU WERE SUCH A CONDESCENDING MANSLUT YOU CAN'T BLAME ME. But yes, I'll probably not do well for your paper. Fuck it okay. 


Alright, not a single photo but a wordy post full of complaints. Good job Chloe, good job. 


Anyway, do check this video out. Can't upload it because of certain infringement rights. I'd figure. Watch the video to the lyrics because it's simply heartrending.


Terrible Things, Mayday Parade




How I react when I've to study ECONSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS )': 


Time Check: 4:54 


OMAIGAHD HEHE. I'm such a self entertainer with all these meme faces. One day, I'm gonna get hate mails from my readers for being so annoying!!!! 


K LA BYE :D

Saturday 18 February 2012




The greatest irony of love:
  •       Loving the right person at the wrong time
  •       Having the wrong person when the time is right
  •       Finding out you love someone after that person walks out of your life

In life, the first thing that’s apparent to action is love. You meet somebody, you get attracted, and you fall in love. From herein, if he/she could love you back, congratulations. But oftentimes, it doesn’t happen that way. You ask yourself a thousand and one whys but God just has something else in store for you.

There are two decisions to make:
1. Move On 
2. Keep Trying. 

Simple enough? Ditto. Moving on doesn’t necessarily mean you’re weak and persevering doesn’t make you magnificent either. Which option will you choose?

What’s the end point, where’s it? When do you stop trying? If your love is giving the other party pressure and disconsolation, then, let go. It might hurt, the pain’s gonna sting for awhile, but in spite of your denial against what I’m about to type, it's the truth.

Eventually, you’ll be ok. You’ll be alright. You’d have healed. You mightn’t be able to accept that person in your life again, but at the very least, your scar’s concealed.

Valentine’s over. But don’t stop the love, people.
xoxo


So I went out today with my two baby boibois. Let the photos do the talking! <3




Bitch please.











 So apparently his glasses reflects the flashlight from my camera lol










Somebody's display picture already! :>















And they say save the best for the last isn't it. K, so I trotted off to cine to take a peektuuuuuuure with Noah Yap today! Haha, my favourite local youtuber to date. Trust me, he looks as cute irl as in his videos! Fangirl mode: ON. 





Frankly speaking, I'm really, really, REALLY very inactive on FB. I'm even lazy to change my display picture there lol! So I guess my photos no longer make their way to fb, do check this space out. On the contrary, I'll be very active on Twitter though. I mean, Twitter's where I'm on almost 24/7 and I really hate it when acquaintances/friends don't have a Twitter account and they have no clue what's happening in my life.

Take it that I'm sad/dying/whatever fuck shit, it's not like I'm going to tell them face-to-face or on the phone. I'LL ACTUALLY TWEET ABOUT IT. Then the very next day when I don't turn up for any event, people tend to ask me: Hey, what's the matter? What happened to you? When I even bother to explain, they'll look at me with those puppy eyes and accuse me of not letting them in on my life's affairs.

BITCH PLEASE YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE A TWITTER ACCOUNT. 

No way am I gonna tell you everything again! x(

This is a lengthy post before I get into mugger mode for a long, long time. Miss me. xoxo.

Tuesday 14 February 2012








"I killed myself tonight. Please don't ask if I'm okay, because I'd lie and say I'm fine. It's ok. Let's reinvent myself tomorrow. Feel like I've died. But only through death can rebirth be made possible."


13th February 2012. 


HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY FOLKS. It's theoretically 14/2/2012 now hehehe. My blog's so screwed now because 1. there's no banner (removed it *sobs*) and 2. been pretty emofuck ASDFGHJKL lately though I previously promised I won't. (Ok, so heard that right there, this girl's promises don't stand) >:






Just DON'T GIVE UP on my page. )': I've intentions to do my first ever sitcom/comedy video with 
DANNY YONG after my exams and 2) do my photoshoot. (Don't know why I'm helping that butthole advertise his blog when he never update one lor! WAHLAO I ONE LOYAL READER LEH BOIBOI >:) Anyway my page would suck a lot during this study period la hor )': 






That's a shoutout only to readers I wanna keep. I don't care if you view my page because you love me, or you hate me, or you are just kpo/I'm your gossip material. 


Jesus, look at the amount of singlish I've had in this post. I'm profoundly ashamed of myself. 


Goodnight.
xoxo. 

Saturday 11 February 2012

Her first animation gif






Took me quite a while to get this up, but it’s worth it!!!!!!! <3 This animation gif is pretty cool, and I’ll upload more of such photos, if time permits. Ignore the flaws in my first gif k /:

EXAMS, EXAMS, EXAMS. *whines whines whines*









Sometimes, it gets so tiring trying to pretend like you’re okay, like you’re alright. Sometimes all you ask for is just somebody who will fucking tell you in the face to drop that façade and just for fuck’s sake, cry.

“I know you’re not fine, so stop trying to be strong. It’s annoying shit, woman. Cut that smile.”

All you ask for is a hug, a tight one that draws all your breath away, a hug that takes all your sadness away, till they vaporize into thin air, till you forget the person that makes you cry every night, till you forsake all the suicidal tendencies, till the smile on your face finally becomes real.






That chunk of sentiments wasn’t purely intended for me. At the end of the day, I’m not the only one in this universe who feels this way. Someone out there, he/she probably does. So this is for you, and you, and yes you over there, I’m extending a virtual hug to all of you. And if we ever meet in real life, oh gosh, wouldn’t I crave to give you a hug.

Hahaha.


TO-DOS AFTER EXAMINATIONS

  • Photo shoot
  • Make a video

Oh gosh, I invested quite a bit of effort in this post. 

  1. Changed my banner
  2. Changed my blog layout
  3. Animation gif

And yes, I do have a motive. To get my blog stats up :D


Next Blog post: If I were to be a guy for just one day. Will be up by Sunday night latest. As usual.
xoxo I love all of you! 

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