Happy 18th.

How contradicting it must be when people go:

"Oh, y'know, I really care about you. I love you darling, but well, (inserts whatever shitty reason) so I'm sorry I can't be there for you."

"We're gonna have something else yep, belated?" 

FYI this is how those people with a 1001 reasons make me feel. 

Oh, so we ARE friends. You love me and you care for me, but you just can't be there. Work's more important, your chores are more important, your event's more important? What am I to these people? A friend? Why don't you people prove it and stop yakking about your concern to me in my face. Come on. 

To those with your lovely little reasons, now I know how important I am in your heart. 

So afraid of getting too close to people, too close for comfort, 'cause I'm the one letting them barge into my life, leaving with a tiny piece of me, each and every time. I'm not sorry to be a porcupine, afraid to let people into my heart and entrusting them with all my faith, 'cause it's a lie, everybody leaves me eventually. 

I'm so afraid of being abandoned, I choose to walk out of others' lives each and every time.

Sorry for all these grouses. *ok collects my own emotions and cheer up :D* 

Snipped off my precious baby love locks, ew. On impulse though, wonder if I should really dye my hair a safe black. Black? Safe? They don't exist in my dictionary fuck. 

& lastly to a dear girlfriend who will never desert me, miaosi, thanks so much for being such a sweetie, darling. You're the best friend any girl can have (if you stop eyeing on my eyecandies LOL WTF! But let's put that aside hahaha) Love you for a thousand years. 

Fuck, feeling so unloved before my 18th b'day I wish the day doesn't come ok. Fuck.

Ok, the last gif made me smile a little lol fml. I'm feeling so unloved I shall blow candles with all my soft toys wtf. 

A starburst rush.

"I'm so lost on my own."

Life's not a bed of roses. I'm not good in coping with stress, and things kept piling up, making me tear. I need somebody by my side, but I keep pushing potentials away, excuses at my defense. Truth is ... wait, what's the truth anymore? 

"If i were an animal, I'd be a bunny 'cause I love to snuggle."

 

A week's shy from my 18th B'day. Can I please be happy again? I'll be blogging normally soon (please wait for it), shall do so after my 18th when I've photos and the sun in my face. 

Haha, I still love my snugglebunnies in spite of my lack of updates. 

xoxo

My heart sank a little, I must have fallen a little. 

Finding her happiness from within.

I lay in bed this morning, basking in the love of the Lord. Y'know how's it like to be up early: The soft blue light of dawn hitting you squarely in the cheekbones, the birds chirped the crickets creaked, your heart; a steady lullaby. I haven't been up early in a while. What's with me? 

Whenever I'm typing like a lyricist, I'd have been holed up in a distant place away from time, locked in my own thoughts, reading off the latest novel of Jodi Picoult's. She's a masterpiece; both her and her work. 

All I'd really love to do is to cower from all my fears for the world, with a cup of coffee, and a good book. I'd love to leave everything behind and be a farmer's wife one day. Not really, but you understand, don't you?

I built up this blog with love. Xx. But, I'm tired of blogging, maybe for a little while. I love my snugglebunnies of course (after all I coined it right?) but I've decided to slow down my pace and blog for myself. I'd still be updating this space, but at no committal of who'd be reading and who's not.

I promise, the past 'blogger me' will be back soon. And soon, I'll revamp this space.

"FIND HAPPINESS WITHIN".

Le Me JCube Experience

Been the longest time since I last blogged. Just returned from a visit to the doc regarding my heart condition and she couldn't diagnose it either. Let's put it down to stress, drinking and negative thoughts. I'm staying away from all these till the pain subside.  Feeling really, really bad for not updating this space, so yes, this post will be lengthy. I’m thinking of simpler and more concise posts when school term begins again. That way, I could blog more often. Something like Instagram, just that I’ll be having it on my blog.

2 Jurong East Central 1
Singapore 609731

Recently, there’s this hype concerning JCube’s opening. So I’ve decided to diss my big and lofty dreams for town and contented myself with  being a true blue Jurong girl for a day.

Wtf, people should really stop saying that Jurong is a Bangalah, Foreign Talent or chemical wastes/industries area. FUCK NO. We have our very own JCube now! (IMAX CINEMA EXPERIENCE AND ICE RINK OK!!!) Oh boy, the pride of Jurong people (‘: LOL

I swear the place’s crowded like fuck.

While waiting for Jasper to arrive …

Hao Kang, le boy with the signature hair and spectacles haha

 My rich bak chor mee boyfriend by night *inside joke*

So yes, just in case you’re wondering why we didn’t take group shots. There’s this really funny conversation amongst me and le boys when we realized a group shot is virtually impossible lol.

Le Me: Eh take photo take photo!

BoyBoy: Ok. You hold!

Le Me: holds camera eh cannot ah! Like that my face fat. Ok you hold. (person changed to hold it)

BoyBoy and Le Me: smiles

Le Me: Y U NO PRESS THE BUTTON LEH?

BoyBoy: My hand cannot reach!

Le Me: 

So in the end all the shots were pretty compromised. #okcan

Yay he finally arrived. Ok time to chomp chomp.

Had our lunch at Manhattan fish market ‘cause I remembered how bowled over I was by their dory fish and seafood pasta the previous time I went.

I had countless of failed attempts trying to snap Jasper’s photos ‘cause he’s extremely camera shy that day >:

Headed to the ice rink. I was telling Hao Kang how much I love the ice rink. “The perfect dating location. Free somemore! Got ambience also.” What the fuck, something along the lines. But ok, let’s see. Take it that months down the road when JCube isn’t that congested, you can visit the ice rink on a weekday (schooling hours) and just sit there watching people skate since there are seats available for the general public like a stadium.

The only drawback is, well it’ll be a little xiasuey if you’re a novice skater, since it's inevitable that you fall and slip in the ice rink. ‘Cause I swear when this fellow slipped that day, everybody went “WOAHHHHHHHHHH.”

“Seriously folks. Seriously?”

 Y U NO LET ME SKATE IN PEACE !@#$%^&*

Everybody were pretty amazed by this machine that came out to clean up the ice. Ok, maybe just me lol. 

Yup, so that’s about it on my JCube Experience. I’ve heard people commenting that it’s similar to a ‘Mini Cineleisure’. Singaporeans alike will enjoy themselves in JCube since there are many stores available. What they could perhaps work on may be the location and the aesthetics wise of the building. But ok la, fair enough, they spent years to groom the previous “Jurong Entertainment Centre” to the “JCube” of today, shifting places would only make me wait till my hair go white. 

Miss me? 

Le Sad Me has no new photos since I haven't been camwhoring aw.

That’s all for now. Goodbye snugglebunnies.
xoxo