I AM NOT ON A DIET

Yay, so here is my food post finally! Makes me hungry just by blogging about it (lol because it's 95% foooooooooooood photos!) This post's gonna be long 'cause I wanna write about significant things that happened lately. 

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51 Soya Bean

51 Old Airport Road 


#01-72 Old Airport Road Food Centre S390051

Opening Hours

Daily: 10:00 - 22:00

Finally tried 51 beancurd the other day when I was in town!

I was in town to collect my bling bling pen, which costs $129 lol wtf. Sister has this membership thing with ntuc and she's gifted this posh pen which she doesn't find a need for. Okay, GPA 4.0 next sem already!!! #dreamon

Yes, beancurd for my birthday next time okay! :D

Watami Casual Japanese Restaurant

2 Jurong East Central 1 Unit #01-17 JCube

Singapore 60973

Tell: 6684 5300

Opening Hours: 11:30am - 12:00

J Cube Branch does not take reservation.

FOR ALL STUDENTS!!!! There's currently student meals promotions @ JCube branch and the price goes as low as $4.90. It's a filling meal! I ordered the pork belly set 'cause I don't really like beef and that's only $6.90 too! *confetti in the air and singing angels* lolol

Ok, so I think it's called Pork rice with egg yolk in stone pot. Lol Phew, long name 

Mix the egg in and you get a nice meal! I didn't finish 'cause small appetite fml. All the good food in the world and I only have half all the time ):

Next, we ordered my favorite scallops! :D 

The one on the right is toufu! I can never ever eat toufu so it's a waste that I couldn't try it too! D: 

Beef Sukiyaki hotpot that I shared w grandma and aunt. The beef here is tender and the stench (I can't stand the smell/taste of badly served beef) is bearable so I had plenty of beef slices! 

$15.80 if I'm not wrong. It's a set meal for two, and a little kid with small appetite works too! -_- lol 

Okay, yes I survived all the food photos and my tummy is growling now.

So why's my post titled I AM NOT ON A DIET is pretty evident. BUT I'm just really frustrated, like REALLY FUCKING FRUSTRATED (ok lol) that my aunt insists that I'M DIETING and even told my doctor that I'M DIETING just because I'm borderline underweight and I've a small appetite. The fact is, I eat all the time and I DO GROW FAT. IT JUST GOES TO MY FACE and nowhere a little distribution to my body. People should just stop assuming D: Okay done ranting hahaha.  

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Presents from the sister! Diss me for being immature but I’m so loving my bunny bedroom slippers, Hello kitty headset, and Barbie plate set lolol. Yes, and there’s Scrabble too, it’s good for all vocabulary lovers!

I’m sure there will be people out there who can’t bring themselves to read the next line as long as they don’t get a word in the previous paragraph.

For e.g.

Mary, an AMBIDEXTROUS individual with a fervent love for greenery

And I’ll be like WTF IS AMBIDEXTROUS I MUST FIND OUT IF NOT I WON’T READ ON lolol. So yes -_- I’m pretty stubborn in this sense. 

Bunny slippers which make squeaky noises! The ears flap open when I put them on :) 

Headset for radio purposes only lol

Attended appreciation event for mentoring yesterday. Was close to tears watching one of the videos. Such a heartwarming event that makes me feel touched and grateful to be given an opportunity to be a mentor and even be in the committee, having more chances to plan events for these angelic kids with a devil's tail. (Ok I shall not go on just in case it turns into a speech lol) 

Caught Sinister @ The Cathay with the bunnies again. I THINK I MUST BE NUTS TO WATCH HORROR FILMS. I NEVER EVER DO THAT. So yes, I was obviously so frightened during/after the movie but still, for the sake of my pride, trying to act like a brave kid lolol. Disappointed 'cause they don't really want to watch perks of a wallflower. But it's okay, shall find someone else to watch with me then! ^_^ 

Sinister's from the producer of Insidious and Paranormal Activity, and the director of The Exorcism of Emily Rose. You'll shit bricks if your courage level is as high as mine ._. 

Diligently updating my blog one day before school term begins again. I'll be occupied with work; committee events seem to be surging lately, and yes new projects and tests/exams to cram for in the coming semester. I'll still be blogging but when I'm busy, I've to prioritize D: 

A quote I came upon yesterday. If you've been following me on Twitter, I tweeted about a true story I heard over the radio yesterday: A couple refuse to abandon the corpse of their dead son for six years, and instead choosing to preserve it in a freezer. They would talk to him from time to time: Open the lid, set up chairs next to the freezer and just start chatting. Even when the news started spreading, they felt that it isn't the right time to let go yet. That actually makes me wonder about the extent that one will go for love, however mild, to simple mortals like us. 

How much time should you give yourself to mourn over someone you've lost before it's time to finally let go? I really don't know what's the right answer.

Alright, that's all for my really, really long post. Goodbye, and good luck for first day of school snugglebunnies! ♥

xoxo

Bunny and a Wolf

I'm exhausted, spiritually and physically drained. Reached home around 12a.m after job training and finally could have a rest, with my laptop typing away. Many things to do on my list but the last I blogged was on 9th and that was really long. I promised to do a food post but it's really important for me to pen my thoughts, so I'll postpone that, again. . . ):

Note: This isn't interesting. So you may wait for my food posts. 

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"You've to put down the past, 

give your present a chance and embrace the future."

I had a talk with my bunnies; a really deep heart-to-heart-talk. We mentioned flaws and unhappiness and fears. I am honest with them. I trust them. I probably said plenty, that was a naive move but heck, I always am. These kind bunnies accepted with grace. I admitted that I am happy with them, let's say 60% of the time? But I am. 

It was a handwritten letter. Someone says I have a familiar scent. And then, I was coerced to let go of the past. My eyes reddened and my heart, thumping fast on a one-way track, willed my mind back to you. 

"The past is a comfort. I anchor myself to it 

so that I don't ever have to feel fear." 

I still smell like you everyday. People don't know this, but I'm living with the ghost of you. You don't write letters. I wrote you many, but I never had the courage to give you one. They say we have to stop living in the past, but what if the past has you? Can they understand? 

What we had is worth so much more than petty crushes. We were serious towards each other. But I left, and you let me go. Your perfume's running out and a couple of months from now, I'll discard everything. I am busy. I am busy. I am busy. If I'm busy, will that keep you in the past? 

My present asks me to be fair to it. Treat it well. Stop going back to the past, it hurts you so badly. Stop being so fickle minded. 

"I wonder if I'll ever forget you."

I don't ever want to leave you in the past because that means goodbye. That means we were a mistake so forget about it. That means our feelings were worthless. But we've been through things that I can't imagine myself going through again. 

"You can talk to me about your problems." But I know I won't, no longer, not anymore. In the past, I'd text a person whenever I'm in trouble, feeling upset or eeyore blue. But I now know that he has another girl to care for, another person he has to already worry about. Eeyore is an emo kid, although emo is no longer the IN thing, but Eeyore is just #foreveremo lol. I never wish to trouble anyone anymore. 

He mentioned scars and feelings. I don't really understand the contents but it sounds pretty sincere, like how your letter was, but I really shouldn't even compare.

Today, I really felt like quitting my job. It gives me a great sense of satisfaction. But I felt awful. I thought that people are being mean, not giving one another the due respect during conversations. I felt that a friendship I used to cherish was on the brinks of collapsing. I understood why I always have more boy friends than girls, because communication. Then I felt like a kid. 

"This world isn't made of candies. THIS IS SOCIETY."

He couldn't love her because she's too childish and immature. That was when I force myself to be mature and grow up. I'll never let myself leave another person. That was the reason why the girl who wanted to give up on her committee convinced herself enough to attend the appraisal. That is also the reason why I won't let myself quit. I've to try, keep trying, try till I'm broken and sore and tired. Because people will only love me when I'm mature enough as an adult. 

"There are many wolves in society. 

You can't always stay the way you are." 

"You can't expect people to smile at you and be nice to you. To each his own. If you're sensitive and easily hurt, then that's your problem. People will only wait for you to fall and devour your bones whole." That's my advice to myself, and maybe to another weakling out there like me, WHAT I JUST TYPED IS VERY TRUE. SO WAKE UP YOUR IDEA TOO. GROW UP. 

I'm thankful to a trusty girlfriend whom I confided in when I was feeling awful and in tears. I love you, mommy.  

"Be strong."

I'm 18. I'm only 18, but I'm an 18 going 19 girl. I have to continue to be strong.

Have faith. I've an event to attend this afternoon. I need my smile to be ready by then. 

1.45am. Goodnight.